ATLANTA, GEORGIA: Jessica White is not going to hold her pain back anymore. The model recently shared a lengthy Instagram post and shared her healing journey in the aftermath of her relationship with ex-partner Nick Cannon ahead of 'Love & Hip Hop: Atlanta' Season 11.

Jessica shared a throwback photo of her and Nick as they posed for the cameras. Jessica looked stunning in an all-pink outfit, while Nick looked dapper in a black leather jacket. Jessica started her lengthy note while calling it a "book". Jessica later proclaimed in her note that she put her all into their relationship and "gave eight ride-or-die years" to Nick.

'I prayed every day that you’d see me and love me the way that I loved you'

Jessica noted in her note, "I feel like you deserve way more respect as a man even though I may be more respectful than you ever gave me With public announcements." She further revealed that she wanted their relationship to work and prayed "every day that you’d see me and love me the way that I loved you. Maybe you did but just kept it from me during the relationship." However, she later admitted that she left the relationship "with more questions than anything" after they split in 2020.

Jessica later noted in her post that she has reached a point where she knows her worth, though she "wouldn't change [her] insane insecurities" that she prayed away. However, Jessica also acknowledged that she encountered "many hurts and pain way before" she got with Nick. Notably, Jessica revealed that Nick "added to: her pain and he was not the "cause".

Jessica continued, "I felt like you always put the other women on a pedestal and i was beyond unstable about that. I have to say these things because I’m going to move on from public shame tht has been over my life since I was at the top of my game in fashion."

She wrapped up her note while talking about how "God has taken [her] hurt," and she has "big big love" headed her way. She concluded, "The truth is [Nick Cannon] and I were both beautifully broken when we were children and didn’t know how to love each other. Instead we hurt each other."

Inside Jessica White and Nick Cannon's relationship

The Sports Illustrated model reportedly dated the 'Wild ‘N Out' star from 2015 to 2020. In 2016, Jessica shared, "Nick was one of my best friends. Nick and I will always be close no matter what. He has a beautiful heart, it's not even about his looks, he has a good heart."

However, things got a little messy when Jessica later alleged that Nick hadn’t been honest about Brittany Bell’s pregnancy. Notably, Nick and Jessica were spotted hanging out again in March 2022. Despite their breakup, Nick and Jessica have remained close with Jessica posing naked alongside Nick for the cover of his 2022 mixtape 'Raw N B: The Explicit Tape'. Later that year, Nick and Jessica reportedly partied together in New York City over Halloween weekend. However, in May 2023 episode of 'The Jason Lee Podcast', Nick got candid about his relationship with Jessica. He called his ex "beautiful" and "my muse," even admitting that he's "still in love" with her.

He also spoke about Jessica's 2020 miscarriage, suggesting that she didn't want to talk about the loss publicly because "she felt like there was a narrative" of "negativity" in the media about the mothers of his children.